So I don't know how many of you know this, but before we even knew about Gideon, I would occasionally spend time in the baby section of stores just browsing. You all know I already had a nursery pretty well set up, but what you may not know is that I also had a few cans of formula and several sizes of diapers stockpiled in the basement. You know. Just in case we got a baby someday.
Well just within the last 10 days I find myself doing that again. I mean now I have every right to be in the baby section, with as fast as Gideon's growing I'm always scanning the racks for sweet deals on clothes and shoes for him. But I find myself fighting the urge to buy little diapers & formula. I keep thinking, "Well, we may get another baby someday perhaps it would be good to just have some on hand..." And of course I'm finding myself drawn to the little girl newborn stuff. (Then again, before Gideon I was drawn there too, because I've always been so convinced that I'm getting a girl. I was shocked to find out he was a boy, but that's another story.) And I've even been mentally designing what I'll do with the nursery when we do get a second baby. (I haven't decided yet if I'm going to keep them in the same room, or make the guest room Gideon's room. I guess we'll have to see.) Plus I've been finding myself looking at baby announcements thinking "Oh that's cute, I need to remember that design for our next child."
The thing is with Travis out of the country, we haven't even started the paperwork process or anything yet. So is this sudden burst of desire for a baby an indication that Heavenly Father is preparing another little spirit for us? Or am I just crazy because I keep looking around seeing everyone's cute little girls and so I'm selfishly thinking "I want one." I don't know.