Thursday, October 15, 2009

Is this a good sign or am I just losing my mind?

So I don't know how many of you know this, but before we even knew about Gideon, I would occasionally spend time in the baby section of stores just browsing. You all know I already had a nursery pretty well set up, but what you may not know is that I also had a few cans of formula and several sizes of diapers stockpiled in the basement. You know. Just in case we got a baby someday.

Well just within the last 10 days I find myself doing that again. I mean now I have every right to be in the baby section, with as fast as Gideon's growing I'm always scanning the racks for sweet deals on clothes and shoes for him. But I find myself fighting the urge to buy little diapers & formula. I keep thinking, "Well, we may get another baby someday perhaps it would be good to just have some on hand..." And of course I'm finding myself drawn to the little girl newborn stuff. (Then again, before Gideon I was drawn there too, because I've always been so convinced that I'm getting a girl. I was shocked to find out he was a boy, but that's another story.) And I've even been mentally designing what I'll do with the nursery when we do get a second baby. (I haven't decided yet if I'm going to keep them in the same room, or make the guest room Gideon's room. I guess we'll have to see.) Plus I've been finding myself looking at baby announcements thinking "Oh that's cute, I need to remember that design for our next child."

The thing is with Travis out of the country, we haven't even started the paperwork process or anything yet. So is this sudden burst of desire for a baby an indication that Heavenly Father is preparing another little spirit for us? Or am I just crazy because I keep looking around seeing everyone's cute little girls and so I'm selfishly thinking "I want one." I don't know.


Angela said...

Who knows but you are a mommy now. And it is totally natural, I think, to feel the cycle. There usually comes another baby after the first. So if it is God or hormones, it's ok. You can always use the diapers as gifts if its not God.

Cathy Shields said...

IMHO I think Moms always go through this as their little babies become more little kids. Maybe you are preparing and will get this but Shirley Roeschlein always tells a story about having Chase on my knee and I am saying "I could do this again" Already thinking!

The Clegg Family said...

You're one of the most spiritual people I know, so I guess if you keep in tune with the Spirit, you'll have your answer of whether or not a little Spirit is waiting for you.

Darryl and Cindy Cunningham said...

:-) This is so like you. And I know that the last time you always said... "If I don't use them I can give them to Jesse or Hillary or my other sisters. I love you!

Jessica said...

Unlike the other sensible people, I'm going to hope that there's a baby girl in your future!
And as for the whole baby and toddler sharing a bedroom thing, I would advise against it. We didn't have a choice because we have 2 bedrooms upstairs and 2 bedrooms downstairs. I think that everyone would get better sleep if they were in their own rooms. And then when they're older they can share a room.
And don't feel weird about planning your (someday) baby girl's bedroom, I do it all the time. I already have some decorations.
Keep us in the know!